Nerdy me.....

Every time I've felt regret , I've realized that what I thought I wanted wasn't really what I wanted after all. I've found that I prefer being the nerdy person in the corner of the classroom rather than constantly seeking attention from others. It's true that many people aspire to be famous, but I've come to realize that it's just not for me. Sometimes, I feel out of place in this chaotic community. That has taken me to heights I ended up regretting. I've always thought this generation is just not for me. Indeed, I am still in the generation where true love was a thing, and being nerdy and not being interested in what the world thinks being 'cool' takes wasn't considered boring. Actually , then 'cool' wasn't any thing . Mostly people aspired to be happy in the end.The urge to fit in as I always say has never done me any good. I would rather read books but talk to you. I would rather laugh at my own jokes but fall in what the chaotic community out there thinks 'love' is. Yes I've learnt a lot and here I am , scrambling my thoughts down from behind the anonymity that web offers. Not that I am scared to shout aloud what I feel but I'm afraid there's hardly anyone who would pay any heed. And I've always believed I'll better be anonymous but the centre of attraction. I shall never lie, that I've gone to silly heights nonetheless to be known. But all of that has never catered me peace . Wherein peace is all I deserve , realisation hopped in scarcity of love is not what scares me but being out of the box the way I never thought does. It's bettter to be anonymous and peaceful rather than known and being talked about ,atleast for me.